Dear idols, 

At some point, realizations hit me. That being a fangirl is also a tiring job. I’m so sick of tweeting my idols every time, every hour but i always fail—–they didn’t notice me. I’m also sick of doing such an effort—-making some collages photos, making an animated version of them, and etc. but all of these things i made for my idols, is just a trash. ‘cause they didn’t notice it and worst scenario, they didn’t appreciate it. 

I also have a heart, i’m also a human, getting tired of everything and getting tired of people who are not appreciating the things that i do for them. Being a fangirl is job where you don’t know what’s your future. You will not earn a money but when your idols notice you, i think that’s the most highlighted part of your life. Well, for me, i’m still seeking on that moment. Seeking an attention from my idols. :(

P.S Yes sometimes i’m giving up being a fan of yours but i know myself, i will never ever give up the things that i love the most——and that’s being a fangirl, from the moment of your failure until the moment of your success i will be here by your side even-though i know i’m just a thin air on your life, i will support you and will love you until my last breath. xoxo

  Love,

Your fangirl