(open letter)

krabby-pattyyyy:

To the boy I love,

Hi! Its been a long-long-long time since we’ve met. There so many memories we have share with. Well for sure you will never remember it but me, yeah me, I will always remember it. From the happy one to those sad moments. Sometimes, its so fun to reminisce those kind of memories because those are the things that keep me alive, it sounds so cliché but its true. Haha.

Anyway, I just want to know how are you and what are you doing with your life. Are you now an engineer? Are you now married (hope you’re not)? Do all your dreams or goals come true? Well if yes, I’m so happy for you. I remember the time you were saying to me all your goals, that you will be an engineer and you will travel the world with someone you love. And you know what, that’s the time I hope I will be the “someone you love” but I failed. She came in to your life and the way you look at her, I knew from the very start that you really love her. That’s the first time I saw your eyes shining like a star, your smile like no one can ever steal that happiness from you. And that’s the time I said to myself that I should stop. I should stop loving you. But the heck, after five f**king years, I pity myself because I’m trap to a thought that you will still love me not just a companion or your enthusiast adviser but you will love me in a way you love her. 

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As the day goes by, I received a mail from my mailbox. A wedding invitation. From you and from her. While I’m opening the invitation I feel that there are thousand of knives stabbing on my chest I don’t feel anything but heartbreak. And as I read the invitation you sent me, I realized that you really love her. You really love her more than your life. She is so lucky and also you are lucky. And that’s also the time I cry—-I cry bursting what I feel from you because I already gave up. Already gave up to the hope of you will still love me because that someone you will travel the world with is already walking down in the church’s aisle, tears rolling down on your faces, making your I do’s, and you kiss her passionately like you two are the only person in the world.

And you know what, I’m really really happy for you. This will be the end of my letter to you because I will do now the piece of lovestory that God created for me. ‘Till we see each other again. Thank you for the memories and goodbye. :)